We’ve known each other 23 years. We were friends for 3 years and then we dated for about 3-4 months before we moved in together. We cohabitated for 7 years and had a child before we were married. 11 years plus. She was lucky enough to meet me when I was shedding the hard drug habit. She wasn’t so lucky with the alcoholism. I wasn’t always able to express the feelings and at first sobriety kinda made things a lot harder for me.

I’m coming up on my 7 year date in under two weeks. She asked if I would cut down. I just quit. I do everything with passion, even destroying myself. I guess what I’m driving at is…I’ve made some pretty terrible mistakes and they weighed on me but that’s the past. I can’t change that but I can sure as hell become the person I want to be now. And so here I stand.

I too hope that you find this type of connection. You’re certainly worthy and I think you know that well. I think you will find it and I can say from my experience that when you do, it’s soooo much work. A good team really push each other to work on themselves. They both initiate intimacy both emotional and physical. They take interests in parts of each other they know are important to their partner. This took her and I our whole lives so far to figure out and we have become so flexible yet bonded I’m not sure how anyone is getting by without that level of support. I am by admission, a needy emotional guy. I used to hide it as weakness, what a fool I was. Ah, no regrets.

You are a F**cking treasure
Don’t let anyone dull your shine
Tim

I get what you’re saying 100%. I’m here for moral support.

I’ve been driving around listening to Clutch just letting their playlist go on shuffle. They’ve been enjoyable. Obviously they have a very unique sound which I can only describe as organically industrial. The lyrics are reminiscent of beat poets but like in a kinda steampunk shamanic manifestation. Guitar tones have a nice range; from fuzz driven tube amps to clean surf rock. The riffs can be a bit angular (which suits their style)
But they also have material where he meanders across a sea of progressive chord movements dripping with delay and reverb (these are my favorite compositions). The vocal stylings are also a bit angular and the strong delivery is necessary for the compositions they reside in. Lyrically genius. Their rhythm section is a cybernetic heartwork capable of driving over the edge of a cliff and then soaring like an eagle into ethereal jams. Like flying in a muscle car. I need more time and exposure but I don’t hear anything that is a hard no to my ears.

I hope you like my review.
Tim

It was a fun one to write.